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as i chased Seth out of the room and brought him over to my mom's room to put him in Sarong Swing to sleep. He has been crying none stop for half an hour and nothing pacify him. I am stressed out that he kept crying just felt so frustrated and couldn't help not to shout at him. Yes, I am not a good parent. But I can't manage the stress that I am going through..... So Seth went to sleep with my mom, which is better, and end up, I can't sleep! Ok, I need the energy to brave through the days to complete the very impending tasks and daily getting chased by clients to do INVOICING!!! DAMN! Even work till late evening can't complete my tasks, so how incompetent I am? Thanks to Jen who is there to lend the listening ears and comforted me. I really need to rest. For the no. 2 and myself. I neglected the no. 1 and no. 2, still not a good parent. How can I be? Technorati Tags: seth

This was taken at Kluang. In the hotel room, Seth and Jurnus sharing the biscuits. So cute and sweet to share the biscuits. :) Another one here, Jack and the 2 kiddos. Playing outside the Restaurant where the dinner is held. I like these photoes lats as they captured the fun moments and Jack trying to balance the both of them. I am pissed but am getting over it now. All I can blame is, the idiotic CO and OC. What the #!(% to have made Olive Tree so darn tired and then going to be staying in for the whole 2 weeks and counting. What welfare for married and NSMen with kids......all full of bullshit! Poor Seth, cried for half an hour looking for his daddy. I feel hopeless. :( Technorati Tags: seth

This weekend wasn't very pleasant for me. Too eventful and heart attacks happenings. We were at Kluang for Jon's and Marg Wedding Dinner yesterday. In the morning, Seth broke my glasses, I got splinter as long as 2 cm went through my thumb. Fuming hot with such a bad happening. Of course, I would not want this to spoil the happy occasion of my bro's wedding. Trip went pretty ok. I was the photographer for them for the day and night. Captured many shots. Some which I was pretty pleased with. Though tiring but it's fruitful and things for them went on quite smoothly. When dinner was about to finish, and they went round to toast to the relatives, I was taking the photoes. Darn at the moment, my digital camera reflect ERR 02! I was in shocked! I saw the flash and then I off the digital camera again. Total horror, the displayed shown "ERR CF" I almost fainted and my face in total dejection. I told my eldest bro, Jack and his face, "went crooked"!!! OH MAN...

Woke up at 2.45am due to Seth's crying. Thereafter, he would cry in intervals of 10 mins or such. aiyo. End up, can't sleep and surf the net doing this and this . Downloaded a few softwares for my E61. Have been so under utilising it. I guess by now, I am pleased with one think on my E61 is I can get Windows Live Messenger to work and do IM! YEH! I need to really sleep now as tomorrow gonna be a long day for me. :D Since I am trying to be the photographer! Oh and before I go, I went for my check up to day at my gynae's. :D BB is now 73mm in length. All is good and really active too. :) Bouncing and all, Detailed scan will be done on 20th April. Adrian to me to discuss with Ed is to do the Maternal Serum Screen (Something like that lar). If need to I have to do the test in 15-16weeks. Mood: Happy and Excited! Technorati Tags: mummy's tots

Woke up a sleepy head. Such a cooling weather, rain spattering on the ground and I so wanna stay home to laze and not to work. Flu starts to come back again, whole night blocked nose and slept with the tissue inserted up my nostril!! URRGH! To clear the blcok nose and running tape of mucus. YUPZ Gross am I? Olive Tree came back late last night. In fact, I was so overjoyed till he said he may not come back cause of one stupid NSMan went home attend C and forgot to return his weapon to the store. So all have to wait for the guy to go back camp and return the weapon and then book out! Super rigid and due to one fellow! Olive Tree managed to come home half past midnight. At least, I get to see him for that few hours before he left for camp again at 6 this morning. Otherwise, this whole week I will not bee seeing him! Not use to it lar.... Another 2 more work days to go, torture. Why now I find it's totally torture to step into office? As I have to be so desk bound and clear all the pap...

without Olive Tree around.... Tough. Funny as it can be, after being married for so long, I still miss him and having him around even knowing that he is in Singapore serving the nation....(so patriotic lei!) Honestly, miss him and so does Seth. At night when he wakes up, he'll look for his daddy. Maybe he is still young and may not express his missing. But when Olive Tree called, he would call him "DADDY" so loud.... so cute. Work did not really start off good this Monday when boss wanna do a bit of micro-management due to the complaint by customer via email. (Though customer claimed it's good intention kind of letting my boss know I may be overload) but now it seems I have to swallow the poison and just work and work with promptness and make sure no delay to customers to avoid more complaints. Sianz. Seth is disturbing again and me trying to type as fast as I can before he starts to type incoherently??? kekekeke... Can't wait for the weekend to come so that I can...

Oh ya, and finally after a super long break, a month plus, I am bloggin again... donkey years, isn't it? What can I say? Being in my 1st trimester, I feel tired so easily and lethargic. Forgoing my addiction to scrapbooking for months!! I can't believe it. Mojoless for sooo long, I feel so darn bad about the stash I have and hoarding still. Only occasionally, I would do little tag cards for friend's kids' birthdays..... ya, once or twice. I miss scrapbooking and my crop buddies! Anyway, a very happy chinese new year, though it came a bit late. At least, I resolute to take a family photo each month, I am not lazy about it. I believe I've neglected loads of things and also with work loading on my shoulders, I am left with little breathing space as well. My 1st Trimester for this little bean in me is really filled with dreams after another dreams. Especially, dreamt of the weirdest things, about work, about things that I've thought too long in the day. Crazy. I tol...

I resolute to take a monthly family photo for year 2007. :D So neglecting the family photoes. I used to snap a few for 2006 but not sufficient to capture the stages of our family life. This is by far, the better shot of the lots that I've taken as Seth is in his happy mood today. When asked to look into the camera, he was smiling all the way till the light flashed. We went to National Museum of Singapore . I've never been to the Museum for whole of my life. I always felt a pity when they closed the Museum for renovation. Love the experience of going there. Admiring the visage of the old and new wing. Fabulous building. :) You should drop by some day to check it out. this is one fun thing we did at the museum new wing. The video capturing the visitors image and portray on the screened wall as long as 2 table tennis tables. hee....nice, I like it. Roaming around the visage, you enjoy the natural lighting as the new wing are built with glass panels. Nice cafe and chill out place ...

Classic look of Seth, when he is going to poo, he'll look this way....... *hhahahahah* ya, like real. He loves to do this action, when he is very excited! But he also knows that when he can't poop, we'll look like this with him, just to motivate his bowel movements. We are at Island Cafe, Vivocity. He was enjoying the scenery outside the cafe. Traffic going by, people walking and smoking outside, and he can't help but keep waving and smiling at them. We walked lots today. Morning went to town, Takashimaya and then head down to United Square. Got his laptop changed. After which went to Vivocity to buy him his rocking horse. He has so many rides now at home. His birthday gifts; tricycle from the scrapbook gals. doggie motorised ride from Lynn & Lai Soon. Antz ride which we bought for him before he was born. Newly acquired, 911 coupe from little tikes (daddy's Xmas gift for him) rocking horse from little tikes (seeing him loving and refuse to move from the ride we ...

That's the meaning for Seth. Whenever he sees purple now, he'll say, "barney". It's really fast, a week, last week of the year, of Dec is coming to an end. That's really amazing how our year have passed. for the last week of Dec the recap about Seth's milestone as follow: 1. talks a lot like, "bye, barney" "bye, car car" (to his new little tikes ride) "bye, xxx" (he starts to speak in 2-3 words) "raining", "wet", MRT (not really clear) "Where, Taxi?" "Where, XX" (XX = People) "Khim Khim" (Marg) "Lock Hoh" (Teochew for raining) "Mai" (Teochew for don't want) "dancing" "Zai Jian" "1-2-3" Oh, my brain too slow to recall all but he is really talketive. Aiyo.... Besides, he starts to have his "xing ge". When he is being scolded, he'll show the "black face". When you l...

So happy to see my 2nd elder bro, Jon getting married on 23rd Dec. It was a joyous occasion which was celebrated by close families and friends. Took lots of photoes and hopefully they are up to mark for the newly weds. Their Wedding is going to be held on 18th March 2007. Seth had a tremendous time at the beach front restaurant. The very busy boy was spotted with a pink floral top. He ran up and down the ramp, laughters resounding when seeing his god-sis jumping up and down, trying to get the helium filled balloons from the ceiling. The kids were happily releasing most of the helium filled balloons up into the sky. It's not everytime, we get to do that, isn't it? Can see that my mom and Marg's mom is getting along pretty well and chatted happily. First time, we met the family of Marg. They were such nice people and with such humility. The daddy is very smily too. Jon's so blessed with a beautiful wife who is so friendly and loving towards him and the family. May they ...

It should be a deserving break for me, 1 week. When I am planning for the leave period, I wish it could be on the Christmas period where I can enjoy the long break, however, my colleague has chose to pick the later dates and therefore I have to go on leave earlier. Honestly, loads of backlog to do. I can never go on leave with peace of mind but I can't be so cruel to myself and family right? I really need to have family time, as I have been neglecting Ed and Seth lots since my working hours are crazy. I hope to have this period to spend quality time with them. As Seth is approaching 18 months, we realise that he is getting really temperamental and seems to be throwing tantrums much more when he could not get his way. It makes me realise as well, that I've neglected him soooo much that could have got him to behave so. The juggling of work and family is not easy, definitely esp for any working mommy. Somehow, I can never find the balance. Just like last week, I was pushing Seth a...

Weeks have passed and I've been slack. Slack in updating my blog, and updating on Seth's development. Bad mommy again... Baby Seth have got some new experiences over the weeks and here they are. - Barney Show @ United Square on 1st Dec 2006 Up Close with Barney himself, kinda gave Seth a "shock". The purple dino has been Seth all time fav for the moment. Seth can go home and watch Barney every night!!! So you can see, he is totally into Barney now..... Babies Proms 2006, 2nd Dec It's definitely an eye opener for Seth! He seems to enjoy the environment, the music (probably the familiarity since when he was in my womb, I listen to classical). The sad part is......all the photos I've snapped are gone! File corruption in the CF card and so very unhappy and peeved! Guess have to wait for next year... *sob sob*

There's always the first. Seth first haircut at the salon, was on 5th Nov 2006. It was as impromptu as can be, we were in church on Sunday, after that went for our lunch. As we were at Happy Kidz Toys R Us to buy a toy car for Seth, we saw that there weren't many crowd at Junior League and got Seth for his hair cut. At first, he was ok, sitting on the chair, and the LCD TV was playing Barney (Seth's fav). When the hair stylist brought out his scissors and razor, oh manz, Seth starts to pull me towards him (as I was sitted besides him) and kept asking me to carry him! We coaxed him, get him toys etc. Thank God, he is still ok and sat there. However, after awhile, he simply refuse to sit even with toys. I've no choice but to carry him and sat on the chair with him while his hair was being cut. I must say I am proud that he did not cry so loudly after all despite repeated refusals. :) Now he really looks more boy and no longer the baby hair untrimmed. Update on myself, I ...

that the weekend, when it's a long weekend, ended so quickly? No matter how long the holiday mood is, the time is never enough for us, to spend time, to rest, to enjoy the little things in life...... Maybe I should not complain too much when others who need to work when there's a holiday, isn't it? ("X) It was so enjoyable just to know that we have more time to be with Seth, accompanying him, wakes up late with him. Having to spend time at home or outside, it's a bliss for us. Despite the tantrums he thrown at times, in the car especially, I still love him as much. When I was compiling the photoes taken over the weekend, I was surprised we have snapped almost 350 shots of Seth. Heee...... There are some that are so scrap-worthy! I printed out 2 photos and can't wait to find the time to scrap, but alas! Got to wait till after next week lor..... I love the photo paper of Kodak that I've bought recently at Cold Storage. 20 Pcs of A4 for SGD9.90! WOW! The color...

Weekends.... to me, is ever precious as I start to become a ftwm. I treasure the weekends I have as I can break away from work. Priority goes to spending time with Olive Tree and Seth. I don't mind waking up early as usual and have a longer day to go as long as it's spent with my boys or my hobby. (",) The amazing thing I did over this weekend, can be seen here . Ya, as crazy as I can get, I did an overnight crop with Anne-Marie and Jen. Gosh! I feel so de-stressed! Having been able to scrap again! hahaha...as if I have been let out of the jail and step into the fresh air with all things refreshing! Thanks, Jen and Anne-Marie for the time to do the impromptu crop. Jen and I continued throughout Saturday to complete our projects. *Aren't we crazy?* This weekend was spent at home most of the time. But I never felt so accomplished for quite awhile, as I manage to have ME time. Besides, I enjoyed the moments, when I start to snap pictures of Seth. He is really funny and ch...

Kiddo has been on the phone so frequent lately. Practically plucked out the house fixed line phone from the rj11 and let him play. He talks as if there's really someone over at the other side of the line.....it's really funny. Another scrap deprived week and not able to do much with so much stash on hands. Its getting really overboard with no personal time to scrap. Really missed my scrapping nights and scrapping buddy too. hiaz. Clara said it right, priorities and priorities. When I can, I would wanna spend more time with Seth and Ed. Especially now that I almost knock off work after 8pm daily. Wished I could manage my work better. Tonight is just the very rare night I keep myself awake to watch the tv programmes and do my nails. ALAS! terrible manicure manz! but heck lar. better then nothing. Ed is having the bak zharm on his left eye. Totally big and irritating. Hope that the bak zharm be gone soon, he is on 2 days mc but was totally sweet to clean up the house and now the l...

IF only we could always have such a joyful nature as he is. Seeing him, enjoying himself so much when he was playing with Marg, laughing from eye to eye. He is so adorable in our eyes and when he is at his disobedient stage, he knows how to appease us by giving us his super duper cheeky look. That's our Seth Benjamin Goh. I can never get angry at him for very long. Even if I am really scolding him out for his mischief. As he grows older, the disciplinary action become more harsh, inevitable? I tried to reason things out with him, telling him why he shouldn't do things this or that way. But guess not all the time it'll work. I know have to be all patience but I ended up become short tempered. Hiaz. I will have to constantly tell myself, he's my favorite boy boy and I will learn to discipline him with utmost patience. hee....i will try Technorati Tags: ourblessedseth , mightychampion

Seth is running a temperature with running nose. I am suppose to go back office to clear my work and finalise my tender documents for submission. On the other hand, seeing Seth unwell with temperature ranging between 37.5-38.5 deg really worries me. Though he is still as active, i can't help but keeps on monitoring him. I don't know how to juggle it well between work and family. As this isn't the first time it happens when I am working that Seth isn't well. Trials after trials. Kinda draining me out. Moreover, not enough rest. Hiaz. It's upon Jesus's strength that I drawn to continue working, else I would have quit long ago

Just when you thought you survived the mid week and wished that everything would goes on smoothly and you could enjoy your holiday, your eldest brother called and shout into your ears at the early morning when you are about to kick start a hard day's work. He just slash you continuously leaving you with no counter attack to his knife sharp words! He couldn't be bothered if you are stressing out and stress you even further to be a responsible daughter, to forego the "simple pleasure" you need, and opt to sponsor the so long overdue furniture set for your mom. As if, you never take notice of the incessant requests by mom to get that furniture set changed???? However, can I say that if I have to forego the "simple pleasure" of traveling to short trip, can he sacrifice that 42" LCD TV that he has ordered and use that to pay for the furniture set instead? Anyway, his kids won't have time to watch TV with the piles of homework on their desks that are comp...