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It's such a terrible day to past by. Grace napping on off for the whole day. Breastfed her, change her diaper, rock her to sleep etc and all she can manage is only at most 20 mins of sleep and then the cycle goes again. I don't know if it's due to the change of environment as I brought her to mom's today. The surroundings could be very alien to her. When we got home,. I thought it would be better but seemingly the same vicious cycle goes. Olive Tree and I can almost pull our hair out! It's not helping when the brother, Seth wants the attention as well and pestering the daddy for this and that. Olive Tree needs to clear the old cupboard as the new one we ordered is coming tomorrow. So many stuffs to clear from that almost collapsing cupboard. Poor thing. Praying that Grace will sleep throughout tonight and also Seth will stop his tantrums and shouting soon. Hope the phase goes over fast.

Ya, I am suffering from it. I guess I can't help feeling so. With the elder one being so sick with fever, cough, runny nose, eyes with greenish mucus, red eyes...what have you!?!?! With a husband, who is so muddle-headed, lost his daughter dried umbilical cord, don't even know where he keeps it. The more I think about it, the more I am angered. As he simply love to stuff the things here and there, afterwards, he can't find the things he has stuffed!!!! It happens one too many times already. I blew my top. I feel like crying!!!! OUT LOUD!!! But with my mom around, I can't do it. Strong streams of anger and anguish and anxiety and so mixed emotional feelings, all in me that I need to find an avenue to blew them off!!! Oh ya, it all has to happen on my birthday! GREAT! Anyway, who cares a dime for my birthday. I need to pay for a loan my bro took, fork out the most expensive PRESENT I ever gave so as he can repay back later and who knows when. I am in my most bitchy mood n...

to juggle between a toddler and a newborn. It's not easy but I am learning and trying to be as "competent" as possible. If there's such word for being a mother! It has been a week since the birth of Grace. Everyday turns out to be a challenge, for Olive Tree and me. Seth is very sticky to Olive Tree. It's so super-glued that every meal, Seth would want him to carry, whining non-stop.... It kinds of really get the nerves as he refuses to eat, refuses to be "obedient". He can goes into a frenzy, shouting, banging his car, throwing his toys away and then said that he is a naughty boy. *shake head* His tantrums can just turn up suddenly and caught us off guard. We wonder why. Whenever I blew my top, I would caution myself not to overdo it. Which I did on one such occasion on last Saturday night. I was fuming when he just refuses to eat and all ways were used to coax him by my mom and Olive Tree. So end up, I picked him up, and put him in the toilet, wanting ...

what else but surfing the net, reading blogs. Ages have not been reading blogs from Kenny Sia and Xia Xue ... once in awhile entertaining. Esp reading from Kenny's blog. This entry is really funny. But patience to read through the whole post.

So angry!! I know when I kana the botak cili to support me as a products sales for my tender, I know it's gone case liao! Why the co. pay so much for such people, high grade, and when its at the 11th hour to review the tender, the botak cili come and tell you, " I am on MC today, will not be able to attend the review." Bloody hell! Nothing was compiled for me!!! Just forward all the emails to me and that's it!?! Botak cili, sorry to be so unkind to you, hope you not going to be in permanent health problem, (this is the usual act of his when he needs to meet customers about complaints or supporting other Accounts Managers in tenders) I am fuming hot hot hot now!!!!

man can be super anal and think with his prick! sorry for the vent over here but I can't help it but *shout* out on my blog, when I tell him something about my bad dream about this and that, all he can response. "blank face." damn pissed. on cold war now....... wonder how low the temperature will go. Technorati Tags: mommy's rants

Ok, I am not in the best mood now after been trapped in the terrible jam from home to mom's. Gosh! Journey took 45 mins! Can you imagine? Even how early we get out of the house, the traffic is really bad. Olive Tree has a morning meeting in office and can't be late for that. So I make it a point to get ready earlier and out of the house by 8am. However, the jam at the expressway started at the tpe exit and we got to take the slip road and travel by YCK. It seems that we got out of a jam to enter another! I can feel his frustration over the jam and mood is bad. He was driving / flooring the accelerator type. Hiaz...... By the time we reached mom's. I am already drained. Knowing Seth would wanna be carried up my mom's, I was harsh to him and asked him to walk by himself and not be lazy. Me having to lug the bags and stuff. I can't be carrying him up even it's only a few floors. Especially now in my 2nd Tri. Not forgetting now, I am hungry again, and nothing to eat...