sometimes, you bound to have days that are so bloody filled with people to antagonize you repeatedly. People whom you love so much, whom you called loved ones and always try to put their best interest at heart. However, when all these people starts to bombard you with shitty nonsense and yada yada all the way about their life's experience, which you clearly do try to lend a listening ear but don't wanna give a damn on the advice as you have your own way of doing things.
I am currently in such a situation. It's a terrible scenario to be in my shoes.
Scenario 1 - Coconut oil and more coconut oil
MIL and mom has been bugging non-stop about applying coconut oil on BB Seth's cradle cap condition. Instilling the thoughts that coconut oil is sooooo good and helps clear the cradle cap in light years and hair will grow so lustrously and shiny thick black hair in no time! Gosh!! I am so tired of the endless advocation of the coconut oil. Presently, am applying olive oil that Olive Tree's sis has given us which is said to be very GOOD and wondrous too. Faithfully application ends up with cynical comments by MIL and mom that the olive oil isn't good enough or the cradle cap still there. BB Seth scratching like mad when sleeping etc etc. Ya, BB Seth has these habits of scratching scalp and face when he's about to sleep or asleep. the only resolution is when I see him scratching, I would tell him, "Don't scratch!" Hold his hands and stop him. To curb his bad habit, as per informed by PD. So when BB Seth's scalp is redden from his incessant scratching, I will get it from mom. It really makes me boil and with the impulse just to get any tom, dick or harry barber to shave Seth's hair.
Scenario 2 - CIO in daddy's way
Last night, bro and gal friend came over for dinner. It was 10 mins to 9pm when they arrive. So I was entertaining them in the living room. Olive Tree and BB Seth were in the room as normal since it's Seth's bedtime. We were chatting and then we heard Seth's wailing. I quickly rushed to the bedroom to see what does Seth need. I was holding bro's new W800 phone and then Olive Tree reprimanded me that I should have attended to Seth's need in feeding first instead of so engross in playing the new toy. I said, once I've heard Seth's cry, I quickly came in, I did not delay what?! Then I was so black faced.
After feeding BB Seth, I went to the living room again. About 10pm, we heard BB Seth's wailing. This time was so much louder. I rushed in, and feed BB Seth again. He slept after a short feed. He probably awoke due to some bad dream. Then I asked Olive Tree how long did BB Seth cried, he said," VERY LONG." Again, I felt he attributed the wailing to my long absence and delaying in entering the room. Olive Tree actually did CIO (Cry It Out) on BB Seth just to test how long it takes for me to respond to BB Seth's cry. Isn't that overboard? I was in living room, with chatting voices, with TV on, how can I clearly hear his wailing if Olive Tree and BB Seth were behind closed door in the bedroom? I totally was pissed with his respond.
You see, my analysis is, if I am deemed such a lousy mom, in the so called loved ones' eyes, then get them to be the mother of Seth la!!!
How well they expect me to perform, me being a first time mother? If I am so perfect, we do not need Jesus already, of course, pea brain asses could not comprehend what I am saying.
Just manage to get BB Seth to sleep after a day of grouchiness. He is so impossible these 2 days probably due to his runny nose. I can't get him to sleep for long. Whichever way I coax him, he simply refuse to be pat to sleep. I am totally worn out by the incidents that happened last night and today, mom's behavior towards me, simply put me to the boiling point. I shall not dwell into what mom was insinuating. Anyhow, I did CIO on Seth as what his daddy did to him last night. Seth cried and cried none stop, his mucus flows, his tear drops wet the whole face, coarse voice and coughing from out of breath. I do not need to describe further how long and how badly Seth has cried.
End up, I gave in. I held him in my arms and cried myself out! Cried my tears onto BB Seth, crying out to Jesus to help me, a helpless, worthless, incompetent toad mother whom do not know how to take care of my own baby. I wished I gave up. I contemplated the worse. Of course, it's His wonderful love that always pull me back.
This is what keeps on flashing in my mind and heart.
"Evil day, Good Days"
The Lord gave us so much good days, and never let us go beyond more than one evil day. He never let us be in a situation that is too much for us to bear.
I will emerge a stronger person cause I have HIS Righteousness.
I am currently in such a situation. It's a terrible scenario to be in my shoes.
Scenario 1 - Coconut oil and more coconut oil
MIL and mom has been bugging non-stop about applying coconut oil on BB Seth's cradle cap condition. Instilling the thoughts that coconut oil is sooooo good and helps clear the cradle cap in light years and hair will grow so lustrously and shiny thick black hair in no time! Gosh!! I am so tired of the endless advocation of the coconut oil. Presently, am applying olive oil that Olive Tree's sis has given us which is said to be very GOOD and wondrous too. Faithfully application ends up with cynical comments by MIL and mom that the olive oil isn't good enough or the cradle cap still there. BB Seth scratching like mad when sleeping etc etc. Ya, BB Seth has these habits of scratching scalp and face when he's about to sleep or asleep. the only resolution is when I see him scratching, I would tell him, "Don't scratch!" Hold his hands and stop him. To curb his bad habit, as per informed by PD. So when BB Seth's scalp is redden from his incessant scratching, I will get it from mom. It really makes me boil and with the impulse just to get any tom, dick or harry barber to shave Seth's hair.
Scenario 2 - CIO in daddy's way
Last night, bro and gal friend came over for dinner. It was 10 mins to 9pm when they arrive. So I was entertaining them in the living room. Olive Tree and BB Seth were in the room as normal since it's Seth's bedtime. We were chatting and then we heard Seth's wailing. I quickly rushed to the bedroom to see what does Seth need. I was holding bro's new W800 phone and then Olive Tree reprimanded me that I should have attended to Seth's need in feeding first instead of so engross in playing the new toy. I said, once I've heard Seth's cry, I quickly came in, I did not delay what?! Then I was so black faced.
After feeding BB Seth, I went to the living room again. About 10pm, we heard BB Seth's wailing. This time was so much louder. I rushed in, and feed BB Seth again. He slept after a short feed. He probably awoke due to some bad dream. Then I asked Olive Tree how long did BB Seth cried, he said," VERY LONG." Again, I felt he attributed the wailing to my long absence and delaying in entering the room. Olive Tree actually did CIO (Cry It Out) on BB Seth just to test how long it takes for me to respond to BB Seth's cry. Isn't that overboard? I was in living room, with chatting voices, with TV on, how can I clearly hear his wailing if Olive Tree and BB Seth were behind closed door in the bedroom? I totally was pissed with his respond.
You see, my analysis is, if I am deemed such a lousy mom, in the so called loved ones' eyes, then get them to be the mother of Seth la!!!
How well they expect me to perform, me being a first time mother? If I am so perfect, we do not need Jesus already, of course, pea brain asses could not comprehend what I am saying.
Just manage to get BB Seth to sleep after a day of grouchiness. He is so impossible these 2 days probably due to his runny nose. I can't get him to sleep for long. Whichever way I coax him, he simply refuse to be pat to sleep. I am totally worn out by the incidents that happened last night and today, mom's behavior towards me, simply put me to the boiling point. I shall not dwell into what mom was insinuating. Anyhow, I did CIO on Seth as what his daddy did to him last night. Seth cried and cried none stop, his mucus flows, his tear drops wet the whole face, coarse voice and coughing from out of breath. I do not need to describe further how long and how badly Seth has cried.
End up, I gave in. I held him in my arms and cried myself out! Cried my tears onto BB Seth, crying out to Jesus to help me, a helpless, worthless, incompetent toad mother whom do not know how to take care of my own baby. I wished I gave up. I contemplated the worse. Of course, it's His wonderful love that always pull me back.
This is what keeps on flashing in my mind and heart.
"Evil day, Good Days"
The Lord gave us so much good days, and never let us go beyond more than one evil day. He never let us be in a situation that is too much for us to bear.
I will emerge a stronger person cause I have HIS Righteousness.
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