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Sometimes I feel like breaking down

It's so fragile, our feelings, our thoughts. Handling a baby is not an easy feat. Baby pose you surprises everyday. Sometimes, they make you laugh with joy, make you angry with a tingling of smiles, make you cry when you don't know what you do, can really pacify them.

Today, my BB Seth, has some temperament. He was bathed and as usual, put in the rocker to enjoy his stretching moments. Normally, he would feel tired at about 10 plus, so I would pat him to sleep and he will sleep till 12-1pm, for his next feed. However, today, he wasn't going to sleep. He was tired, could judge by his yawning. I pat him, soothe him, but nothing pleases him. End up, I gave him the pacifier. He took it pretty well. He was about to doze off, I plucked out the pacifier, he woke up crying! Hiaz! I really don't know if this helps. But if he continues to be so, pacifier not in his mouth, he wakes up crying, future we are going to have a tough time getting him to sleep. So, mom took over BB Seth. Again, give him the pacifier, he does take it. Again, slept. After a few minutes, awoke again, when pacifier was removed. I had enough!! So I brought him to the room, put him on bed, since it's his feeding time at around 12. I breast-fed him. He suckles and drift of to sleep, leaving the milk flowing out of his mouth. We did this ritual again and again, till I have no choice, but to sms Olive Tree, complaining to him what BB Seth did.

Near breaking down, but Olive Tree wrote back, "Look upon Jesus, You rest." I was telling myself, why do I fret so much, since the Lord's has his way of nurturing BB Seth, I should listen to Olive Tree's advice. I rest in the Lord and let the Lord soothe little BB Seth to sleep. Don't worry if he gets enough milk, or he has nipple confusion over the pacifier and my breasts. Jesus will teach him.

If our lives were without Jesus, I think it will all be a struggle and quarrels. We have been blessed to have BB Seth, and also, an intelligent mighty champion. So, I should have faith in the Lord, not my own self-effort, to make things work out for the best.

Rest in the Lord's love, and all will work out for the good of it.

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